It's funny to think of the love I had for people. The over the top romanticism, memory boxes, scrap booking saving movie tickets from our first date. Experiencing love for the first time is like your first career! So excited, so enticing, so ready for the experience. Unfortunately, like most of my endeavors... failure is eminent.
I don't have it anymore. I don't have anything left in the tank. I'm all out. Here I am, busted, broken, and all out of cards. This life has been one rocky ass road God. Now I know what your saying up there. My will be done. BUt my question is Why give us free will, when the end game is broken, imperfect, and taxing?
I have loved so many, I have given everything I thought was love. I know nothing of love God.
Teach me, teacher. My happiness was making them happy and I even failed at that. I am broken God, restore my faith in new beginnings and in relationships. Let me Love again like I use to. Bring back that passion in me oh lord, I will depend on you for that leadership. Do you give chances? Cause I have failed three times? How many more times to I realize how to love? I ask that you guide me and protect me lord.
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